CBC News - Montreal - Former cop jailed for rape gets parole

CBC News - Montreal - Former cop jailed for rape gets parole

Ok I don't think it posted the picture of this monster, please if it didn't and you happen upon this would you please
be so kind as to go to cbs newspaper and look up the photo of the cop who is being released on early parole for raping
young girls 15of them to be exact, very early he only served I believe 2yrs they gave him credit for 4yrs he didn't even
serve, they figure the big ole you naughty boy he heard was enough, what about the young girls, okay I never usually do
this but this is onetime I am going to, I am now 53years old okay, when I was 11 I was raped to this very night yes I say
night I still have trouble sleeping, I really do, I have never really gotten over what happened to me, in my case the family
where it happened used me as a baby-sitter he snuck home early and he violated me, I was just a mess for years and years
and that's the God's truth. My wonderful foster family did try to get justice for me, to no avail, I will never forget that Judges
words he said well after all he is a respected businessman and she is "just" a foster child, okay well this time I doubt very much
that each and everyone of these children were foster kids, and hopefully much has changed but then again I worry since they are
letting him out, but perhaps if enough folks read this and get good and angry perhaps this sob will be right back where he should be
behind bars and I do hope he is in general population throw him in with the others, most of whom are fathers of young girls, I have a
pretty good hunch they won't be too friendly with him, hopefully he will be treated just as he deserves. If the photo is here please try
and click on it and keep on passing it so everyone knows just what this creep looks like, thank-you very much! God Bless!!

Disciple "Things Left Unsaid" with lyrics

Matt "My Sweet Love" its been so hard baby I try I really do, I keep trying to tell myself that when God calls me I pray "HE" does, I can finally be where I have always wanted to be, where I know without a doubt I belong and sweetheart that is back in your loving arms, Dear God I can't believe no matter how hard I try I never knew in my entire life that anything on earth could hurt this much, oh God how it hurts, it feels as though there is something inside of me just pulling and yanking at my inards I find music as you know I love my music I have always been able to find some comfort in music, I found this song, I am still unable to listen to it without crying my heart out, I think of you laying in that hospital bed knowing how very much you trully wanted to be home, I remember the constant arguments I had with the staff, as each time I came they would say to me Mrs. Groves we need to talk with you, always the same exact conversation, they would ask for my permission to stop treating you, I would tell them the same thing each and every single time, no you cannot, I insist my husband be treated as best as possible with all he requires at all times, and I meant it with all of my being, I told them I wasn't rude, I tried so very hard to make them understand, I knew you better than anyone on the face of this earth, I knew how hard you had already fought and I also knew how hard you were fighting then, I told them all he wants is Christmas, please, last year he never had his Christmas and it is all he has been talking about, it means everything to him, I told them that I had been told by our homecare nurse who had looked after you from the very beginning whenever you required their services and that she also knew you very well and was sure you would indeed be with me for Christmas, honey, I am so very sorry, my heart is just breaking, I think to myself whatelse could I have done, gosh even you tried, remember 'My sweet baby' you said to them at the top of your lungs I want to live, and Dear God, how any of them could do what they did is totally inconceivable to me, never in my wildest dreams did I think that anyone would risk everything to do what that female witch (supposed to be a doctor) oh I often think alot of the reason I haven't been called Home yet is God wants me to somehow forgive her, oh I am so confused I just can't, I beg that God will understand and forgive me for not being able to forgive her, I ask how, how can I possibly, she lied to me, because of her you must've thought the only person you said you believed in that would always no matter what be fighting for you and believe in you, you must have thought for those long blasted six days that I had indeed given up on you, when in reality I was asking question after question and being lied to over and over again, I'll never forget the doctor that was on call that nite as long as I live I will feel a great debt to him, if not for him you might never have known the truth, but when he came back to the hospital and into your room, he had your file in his hands, he was yelling and really angry, he asked them and I quote him word for word, "How the Hell did this happen" somebody answer how in the hell has this man been without his IV, his blood transfussions or his platelets which he is to receive now, how his wife is right here, I have no doubt at all she never ever gave anyone on this staff the permission to cease his treatment, nor for that matter do I see a signature where her's should be, so someone tell me just how this happened, oh he was just furious, I remember the nurse saying he didn't think the doctor on call would come out in this weather, as it was oh so cold that night and just misserable, it was snowing and icy, an awful night and he had already gotten home had his dinner and settled in for the night, but when the nurse told him of the situation and me demanding you receive platelets he said he'd be there within the hour and by golly he was true to his word. I will forever and I trully mean that I am oh so grateful to him, I can still see your beautiful face looking at me, tears just streaming down your precious cheeks, oh baby I oh God how I wish I had known sooner, but they got their wish, they had kept you off so long your poor body just couldnt' do it anymore, Honey I remember saying to you oh God Baby I pray to God you know just how much I love you, we both cried our hearts out and you just kissed me over and over, sweetie I would give anything in this world for just one more day, even an hour, 10mins anything just to see you to know without a doubt you are trully okay, that you are happy, I am grateful for one thing and that is the fact I know your not hurting anymore and nobody, nobody can ever ever hurt you again, I thank God for that so very much. Oh Baby the hell those bastards put you through, some of them I caught but it terriffies me wondering just what the hell went on when I wasn't there to protect you. I am also very very grateful to the paramedics who came to our home, had they not given you the medication I told them the nurse said she was worried during the afternoon remember, she wanted you to go into the hospital, I often think back on that and wish I had said honey maybe we should just to be safe, I say that because I think had we done that you'd have been at the Peter Lougheed not the Foothills, they were very good to you there except for the one doctor who didn't have a clue about medications for a patient with your disease or for that matter your disease, but it was daytime still so I am sure you'd have not even seen her, I know that was one of the reasons you didn't want to go. You see "Baby" I KNOW saying it again I KNOW because I do, without a doubt, had you been at the Peter Lougheed they wouldn't have insisted I leave you alone when you were pleading for them to let me stay, they would never have thrown me out at 9pm with the reminder always now you do realize your husband could die tonite, charming lot they have up there they trully are, they should go into politics they'd fit right in. Oh I appologize I know we have many good people and we did just have an election, I had trully hoped this man Mr. Taylor would be elected in our ward honey you know it was so kool, we got a pamplet from him I read it, and I thought, hmm I wonder if he'd be willing to talk with me about them having taken the survivor benefits off my check and put me down to 733.00 a month to live on from AISH, anyhow I thought I am going to see and I called, well I left him a detailed message telling him just why I had called now you know I didn't excpect anyone to call, but I really wasn't prepared for the gentleman himself to take the time and call me he was genuinely concerned over the fact that they said I wasn't allowed my survivor benefits, especially upset when I told him, they took the entire 2500.oo benefit, I was told they were going to pay for your cremation and the other costs (sorry baby but you know I always tell you everything) anyhow I told him I never even said anything, it didn't matter to me, funny isn't it, you'd be hollering at me I know as you know how hard it would be for me on my income to keep going, heck 733 doesn't pay the rent, I have tried to find other places, but to be totally honest this was my home with you and I don't want to leave "OUR HOME" I feel often as though you are here helping in your way, and baby your love is all I need it all the help I need, I adore you oh how I miss you, sorry i'll get back to what I was telling you, anyhow he was a real nice man, he cared about me, little ole me, I have nothing, no money, don't own a darn thing,and I told him as much, he seemed to care even more then, he was really a nice guy, oh how I hoped he was going to win, the last time I checked I was all happy cause he was in the lead, but sadly he lost and by so very little too, some lady got in, I haven't bothered trying to call her. Anyhow honey, I wanted you to know , huh Rollin With the Flow just came on the radio on Galaxie Country by Charlie Rich, oh I used to love that song baby remember. Oh sweetie how I wish you had got your Beloved Christmas, you know what sweetie I didn't even realize it was Christmas at first, but as I know you know I spend each day except if I have to go out like today to the doctor the same, laying on the couch with our beloved 'kiaa' and waiting for you, I will wait until finally you come, I know you will. It was funny I was so angry today, I couldn't help it, you see I emailed Hon. Premiere Ed Stelmach, and when I rec'd the letter I called, the minister I spoke with was very kind, asked alot of questions, I told him everything, the next thing I knew I rec'd a phone call from Aish from our worker remember Blake, well his supv. called me and said she had been contacted by their office she wasn't pleased for sure but perhaps I will receive justice, I know for this you'd be so proud you hated it when I just let stuff go, you would say why don't you stick up for yourself, and I would tell you aww honey its no big deal, but honey this is onetime you are right it is a really big deal and I promise you I intend to try and try and keep trying until I get back what you were promised I would be receiving. Are you ready for another doozy, this is what they told me, okay ready, it is not allowed to receive a govt. check from the Provincial Govt, and also from the Federal, okay I said if this is really the case, how is it my husband was allowed to received both and for quite sometime as a matter of fact, that was when I got angry as you know I don't lie, and I was told I was dead wrong, there was no way you had received the both, I to that replied calmly, maam I was receiving my survivor's benefit from the pention board which is the Federal Govt. correct, she said yes I was right and that it was wrong, I told her, just a minute, for me to be receiving this check my husband had to have been on it, she again agreed, then I said okay, Aish paid for my husband's funeral, now we both know they would not have done that unless he himself was on this check she got upset with me something about another call and hung up, anyhow it is still ongoing, however I found out the reason the funeral parlour charged 2514.00 okay now considering its only 500 to cremate someone oh yes and remember they told me under no circumstances could I have an urn, however they provide me with one that is approved by Aish, there wasn't one there at the time, well honey you and I both know it is a plastic box God help me, and they billed 300 for it, okay still, but it is legal as Aish actually tells them to make certain that anyone receiving this benefit doesn't receive any change, it is to be priced to the level that totals the ammount of the benefit, and it is true he enclosed me a copy of it. I showed it to our doc, oh man he is so fed up with everything that has happened. Oh but guess what, I was so upset today, I said to him out right, I asked him okay, I said is it not true that I should've been gone long long before Matt, he said yes I was actually trully lucky so to speak that I was alive, then I got really angry and Iasked him if that is the case then why is it I am still here, God knows I so wanna be with Matt, this is just so wrong, I told him I said Matt and I were like 1, we did everything together, heck folks used to kid us about how very inlove we were remember honey, everyone who ever knew us always said how very inlove we were and how wonderful it was to see, oh God, Baby how, how, please please baby tell me how do I go on without you, I am in horid shape, you'd be appalled if you saw me, I must trully look like I am out of a horror picture show or worse, but it just doesn'tmatter to me anymore nothing does. You know they killed me that night, when I phoned up there at 1:15am and literally begged that nurse to please please let me come up, I told her I said I am telling you I know him so well, there is something bad wrong, my heart is telling me as if he is ringing the phone and asking me to come up, I knew you needed me so bad, and Baby they wouldn't allow it, no way and I mean she was downright hateful, telling me the doors were locked, I'd be outdoors, that visiting ended at 9pm and I was aware, then she said you can see him in the morning he is just fine, I was just in there she lied through her dang blasted teeth Matt, why, why why couldn't she have just let me come up and comfort you, oh Baby I think about it and how very frightened you must have been, they knew it too, they knew you feared the nights, they knew how very bad you wanted to live but honey none of that mattered to them they were the most hateful bunch, oh ya and then " Mighty Precious Rhonda", the head of that load of crap, had the bloody nerve to tell me how all of the nurses had been talking and they all felt just plum awful because they knew how very much we loved each other, heck she even said they all said they had never seen a couple so very in love, and that she wished she had a crystal ball cause she'd have done things so very differently, that was when I said oh you mean you all would've been honest, that was when she blurted out oh so you are going to sue, she waas only calling trying to sucker me into believing that they actually cared about you or I, oh no I have had almost one year to think about it, however the one year mark hasn't passed and "Baby" you are going to get the justice you so deserve, if theres any reason you haven't come for me I would wager this is it, you want me to make certain that those responsible for the hell you suffered and you loosing your battle so much sooner than you would have had you gotten the treatments I believed you were getting all along, Honey, each and everyone of those nurses who had a hand in hurting you will pay, and the doctor that lied through her bloody teeth and wrote that on your chart oh man am I ever going to make sure she never hurts anyonelse as she has us, I miss you so very much baby, please forgive me honey, I am very sore tonight, the weather has been fooling around again so I am aching like a tooth ache, oh God I long to hold you in my arms Baby, I want so badly to tell you how very much I miss you oh honey if you only knew, I pray for just alittle glimpse of you even, oh what I wouldn't give, I am hoping and praying that once the proper papers are all filed as I am not going to mention his name here you never know but I know that if I am not alive to continue the battle he will, he is a good man, a law abiding soul, and a strong Believer in Our Heaven'y Father! I love you baby with all my heart and soul, I miss you and you are all I think of, oh man this music, wwlle I am gonna go laydown, this ole body is done in she needs awhole bunch of rest, love you baby till tomorrow!xoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxooxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxooxoxox

Johnny and June - Heidi Newfield

This song is called Like Johnny & June, God knows Matt and I loved just like they did all the way till the end, oh what I wouldn't have given to have been able to go out like they did together, I miss him each and everyday, when I do try and make alittle bit of an effort trust me the second the govt of Alberta realizes this well they take somethingelse from me, to ensure that life doesn't get in anyway easier so I don't suddenly decide I may actually give life a chance, no need to worry, you folks have gotten me lower than even I ever realized I could go, so not too worry, I await the night or day whichever when Matt finally see's I can't possibly handle it anymore and I do know its getting pretty damn close, things that never before angered me anger me beyond belief these days. I am so mad you even made sure that once again this year I will be forced to freeze all winter just as I did last year, I remember when I'd arrive at the hospital to visit my baby and I'd have to stop downstairs and try to dry and warm my feet in fear he'd see just how much pain I was in trying to get there. You know the funny thing whenever I would try to get a pickup to either go to the hospital or return, always I got a bs excuse of somekind why they were unable to make the pick-up, you know the odd part, since Matt passed not once have I had any trouble with getting a lift from them isn't that odd, were you bastards in on that as well. You know I also don't get why you folks want to make so sure we are never happy say on Thanksgiving or ofcourse Christmas, oh my God, God Forbid we ever feel sort of almost normal, my gosh whatever would you folks do, no not too worry, you keep us so very far below the poverty level you need never worry. I will never ever forget my worker "Blake Cameron" telling me that and I quote my cable, internet and even my telephone now you all use as do I your phone if ever you have say an emergency correct, well according to this goof its a luxury, yup I said it and I wouldn't have posted his name if I weren't telling the gospel truth, he is the meanest excuse for a worker ever, this man called me at and again this is a direct quote"did I wake you" as it was exactlly 8am, okay the office only opens at 8am, and as a rule you can't even get any answer for quite awhile after 8 anyhow I was so shocked,however without thinking I said to him,no you sure didn't wake me as I was up all night worrying over you taking my death benefits from me, I swear, now this is just my opo however he actually sounded oh so pleased to be giving me this news, he said oh thats the reason for my call, I wanted to let you know that you are indeed going to be loosing this check as we are taking it from you. Well ofcourse I tried to call where it comes from which is the other govt and they were so very nice they told me not too worry, noway could they take it as it comes from them and goes direct to me and I am most assuredly entitled to it, anyhow what he nor I had counted on was this jerk, when he found out he couldn't take it, he just decided to take it from my AISH check, okay if bychance you are reading this please be honest with me, tell me if you were terminally ill, had severe problems getting around, okay he sent me a form for a bus pass, I am like ya right how am I suppossed to buy it, and I can't walk that far anyhow. But tell me could you live, my check from AISH is 733.00 a month total now, then I get a death benefit from my husband passing it is for 431.00 a month, okay thats my total income for the entire month, now you gotta buy food which I seldom do, okay then you pay your luxury bill (cable etc..) okay thats approx 165.00 a month, the rent is 750.00 okay tell me the God's truth wouldn't you be upset, that 431.000 didn't make me rich, but it helped oh so much, the part that really gets me is they keep telling me oh its okay to get a job and earn that ammount your allowed upto 500 a month, okay if I am then why can't I have this, I was told I was allowed by the worker who originally set up Matt's financial benefits, well according to them he didn't get both, he did too, they know for a fact they are lying as do I, I am praying with all of my heart and soul that God Above will help me, I can't do this anymore, he is the cruelest excuse for a human being ever. I contacted our Premiere, Ed Stelmach, to be honest I didn't excpect much, I got abit of a surprise I told them everything, how they first took the 2500 then now the 431 I said heck why, plus he phoned me 2hours after telling me he had decided that yes I was going to be loosing my check okay, he phoned me back 2 hours later said oh I just wanted you to know that you won't have enough for your rent anymore, he is so mean and heartless, you see as hard as it is for me to walk to the bank, I thought well I'll make it abit easier for me, I won't go get the cash each month, instead I am going to take and have it paid direct by my AISH, well that was all good when my check was its full amount, I had 419 left after rent, plus my 431, I would pay my rent, get a few groceries, I'd even try to pick up a few things I might need, now heck I can't even afford to buy a bar of soap, serious I am worried as this month I need both toilet paper and also laundry soap, unless ofcourse he excpects me to wear the same clothes day in and out, you know I wouldn't be at all surprised. When he first told me this might happen, I told him that last winter due to my problem with my circulation I lost 2toes, they froze, and I had found a pair and intended to put them on lay away, he just shrugged, cold cold man, has no business doing the job he does. You know he has a supervisor, I don't know her name but she is one of the nicest, kindest most caring people ever, I don't understand how in God's name she got stuck with someone so cold as him. He acts as if he is taking the funding from his pockets, I didn't ask to be sick, infact years ago, heck it was back before Matt and I were married I asked if I could please go back to school, I was told I was a waste of the govt. money as I wouldn't live long enough to be able to graduate let alone actually get a job or anything like that, that was approx 15yrs ago, so I think they were just alittle off don't you. I miss my husband terribly, but I know for a fact he'd never put up with any of this, they have made up my mind for me, I am going to sue the hospital, I know without a doubt I am in the absolute right, and I also know I shouldn't have anymore problems living when its all over I should be able to pay my rent and buy some groceries and Matt will rest much easier as I have felt for a very longtime it is what he wants, he would never ever have waited as long as I did, for that I am trully sorry "Baby" but I adore you and I will see to it you get the Justice you so deserve! God Bless You Honey, I pray this will make you happier, and rest easier, God how I miss you oh so much, I only wish you'd come for me, I know now why you haven't you want this, I will file, hopefully once I have done that, all the truth is down, you will then come get me "Baby" I been waiting oh so long for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Always & Forever Your Loving Wifexoxoxoxoox

Well tonite I am just super po'd and so not feeling well so I decided to come to my private place
and write, somenights its helped me honestly to be here for another day, but in all liklihood I would have still been here no matter what. But now our govt of Alberta and the hardy har har what's is its name oh ya I gotts it, it is hon. Premierre Ed Stelmach, the biggest jerk ever and I got news for you, he is so full of crap, for the hell of it I wrote him a letter, I tried to exsplain to him that the AISH Dept. had ripped me off for the entire death benefit of 2500dollars and then to add insult to injury they turned around and took the extra 431.oo a month that I was getting and to be honest I really so can't believe it, they keep saying how its illegal for me to receive these funds, it is legal for me to go to work which they know damn well I cannot, however I asked them years ago for the chance to go to work, infact I wanted to first go to school, and they said they wouldn't waste their money because I wouldn't live long enough for it to be worth it to the govt. nice huh, well surprise I am still here and they could care less, infact I really do believe with all of my heart and soul what my beloved husband always told me he said they didn't want any of us to be alive after 50 cause they really can't afford for us to live that long, its awfully cold sounding but if you were living my life believe me you'd know its fact!! I mean they honestlly excpect me to be able to live and have any possible kind of possitive outlook on life, how the hell does one do that, when they lost the one person who meant more to them then anyone, they are now totally alone, save their doctor, and perhaps pharmacist, sad life sure but somehow I dreadfully get up everydamn day, only dissapointed that I did survive yet another day, not by choice thats for sure. Anyhow suppossedly they are checking into what I said, cause I know I am right I even have the cards to prove it, my husband collected a check from both govts. if it was legal for him it should be legal for me too, this is a load of crap and personally I am fed up of all the bullshit, AISH literally stole nearly 2000 dollars from a person who can't even go to the store and afford a quart of milk, this is a govt agency I am talking about, the one good thing is its the Federal Govt. and allthough our mayor didn't care the gentleman I spoke to surely did, God Bless Him he is a saint, she sounded alittle on the nervous side today,anyhow see ya I am gonna again attempt sleep and hope that Matt will come by for a visit!! Love you Matt, always & forever, your loving wifexoxoxooxox